Thursday, September 13, 2007

Missing you hard...

This one is something straight from my heart for my dear friend...

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I want to be there my friend
Be there for you and hold you on -
Be there for you when you need me badly,
Be there and be sure you are safe.

I know that you can take them all,
I know you have a heart too strong.
Too strong to stand them all,
And stronger still to make me calm.

Miss you now than I have ever known you,
And I dunno how to repeat your word of solace back to you.
You know I couldn't take them at once,
But my dear - you had to pour them out.

Wait for time to fly and fade,
Wait for God to answer our prayers.
Will wait for that day -
When in all smiles you would say
That you have good news me -
And in plenty too :-)

Friday, September 7, 2007

A verbal "Treat"

I owe more than a simple treat to all those ppl whom am gonna mention in the post below. Due to unavoidable reasons the simple form of gratitude called "Treat" stands postponed... but still i had to do something for them on this very same day, and hence this post.

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO ALL MY DEAR ONES WHO MADE MY DAY TODAY

"THANK YOU" or even "THANKS" would be too small a word, curse myself for my poor vocabulary, that i can find no substitute for an informal, and stronger version of the word, to express to people what i feel now. The joy of getting placed - as early as this, going home for one-fourth of my course, getting to do what i wanted to, and above all - getting thru the process called "Summer Placements" - all these were just for a few seconds... nothing went into my mind after i was crowded by people, too sweet at heart around me, celebrating every moment of my success.

Every single person who were worried that i wasn't serious, who were amazed that i was too cool, who were angry that i wasn't cramming Kotler as much as i should, who were jumping even for a mere shortlisting of resume, who were more tensed than me before my interview, who were fighting to be the first person to get to know how i did, who helped me out with small-small stuff (ironing my shirt - darling she was), who were there to call me before the interview and wish me luck, who were there to ping me online and wish i good luck, who were there to pray for me, who was there with me all through my interview (made me feel like mom was nearby), who was there to smile and convince that i am "In", who were all too eager to find out what happened in the interview, who were all sure (more than me) that i'll make it, who were as anxiously waiting for the results as i were (infact more), who were the 1st ones to know the final results (before me), who cam running along - bringing down the whole hostel, who were hugging me and were there for me at "the moment", who were there to surprise me with goodies, who were there to make me a star, who were there to wish me on my success, who were there to feel happy for me, who were there to keep thinking of me... GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH WONDERFUL PEOPLE AROUND.

One month, and a bonding this strong - i just can't ask for more. BLESSED, ELATED, HAPPY, EXCITED, SPELLBOUND - are words which might not really fit in... in short I JUST HAV NO WORDS TO SAY.

Note:

Thank you all (Don't believe in thanks among friends, still i have no other word to replace this)... u all MADE MY DAY. Treat is on the way, this post is just a simple gesture of love and friendship. I wish and pray all these people, do much better in their interviews - summers and finals, and much better all through their lives and go places. Lets RULE THE WORLD!!!

Sunday, September 2, 2007

A feeling new...

My favourite one... esp, when i gift this to people and their love. :-). Though you could find this on my poet's homepage, wanted to add this in my blog. a) to make this blog a place where i wanna share all i want to. b) this piece is close to my heart and worth sharing. c) its been a while since i updated this blog :-P (i better do before harini is behind my back asking me to)

I still remember the lovely chennai suburban train, sitting in the 1st class compartment, scribbling this in a scrap of paper, excited coz was writing after a long gap... (i love evrything about this poem)

Here it goes:

A feeling new...

A touch of joy-
and still beyond.
A dash of spirit,
still within.
A range of boundaries-
newly defined.
A sense of freshness,
like the breeze around.
a realm of life-
just explored.
A meaning of truth,
unwrapped not long ago.
a uniqueness
from deep within.
A life so strange-
many a time.
A feeling new-
known never before.
I feel now,
that this new bond,
Shall last for long-
for years to come.
Not as long as we live alone,
But years later too,
when our souls meet within.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

All isn't fair...

If this is it everytime,
When all that was fair ends in a tear,
When hearts and not minds are seen,
When words but not silence speaks...

Knew it all right from start,
Knew I not, that I cannot.
Thought it was for the good,
Thought it was for the whole of life...

Wished I was there for you,
Wished I was there always...

If only I had not asked for this,
If only I had not accepted it.
If only I were the 'I' whom I knew,
I could have just saved tears a few...

Disclaimer:
This poem was written in class when was totally lost in thoughts. Has no other significance with my life or anybody else's.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

SLEEP - then and now

Confessions:

Forgot the promise made to Harini, that i shall update this new blog regularly.
Forgot to start writing on my life @ VGSOM (I shall do that very shortly)
Forgot to mention all these were not because of my poor memory, but coz of the dreaded 5 letter word S-L-E-E-P.

Blabberings - just out of bed:

For someone like me who had always been a night creature, sleeping very late- not before midnight strikes, it can never be tough to manage here. Sleeping late is never a problem. The problem is on the other side of the coin. Getting up early, rather getting up itself. 2 to 3 hrs of sleep every day, very cyclic, very monotonous. End result - dozing off in class only to find out that am one among the very few who sleep in almost all classes. (Here again i blame the topics for putting me off to sleep... for i have been wide awake in real good lectures). Worst was in finance class, when the prof had to ask me if i was feeling very sleepy (and that too in hindi)... and i just had to take an oath that i shall neevr again sleep in classes...(good we haven't had any dull class after that)...

Its not just me... a big lot of junta... from those who sleep over the chairs, to those who sleep right in front row. From the CR to the placecomm. From those who sleep with dreams to those unlucky ones who dint have any. From those who had heavy lunch to those who missed it badly... sleep is the only buzz word around. [Sorry folks if any of you are personally included in the list]... Greeting each other every morning can never be without enquiring when the other person slept or for how long...(so much for sleep)

All the pressure on weekdays' sleeplessness made me go mad and do nothing but sleep the last three days (sleeping the whole day :D)... and the fact is-this is even worse... am left with nothing but guilt.. when the whole world is having fun (or perhaps studyin too), am back in my room sleeping... (am i unahppy about this ??!!??!!). When shortened sleep made me miss just sleep, long hrs of sleep made me miss a whole lot of goodies... breakfast :( , occasionally lunch, precious time that could be used for chatting online, more precious time that ought to be used for studying, and much more...

Now that i have cribbed so much about both missing sleep and sleeping a lot (see am proving myself to be good at confusing), i sit back to think why i lack sleep management skills... maybe thats one i'll end up developing by the end of the course...

Realisation:

I am wide awake now. Just read through what i have written above. Apologies if you can read nothing but the word sleep. :P. Will aim for brisk posts next time.

Sleepily yours. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Taggo Wierdos

Does the title looks like i had copied it from a spell book?... yes but not that of a witch but one of a fairy - Harini the fairy who tagged me to make this "Wierd" post.

Now about the wierd eight:

1) Nothing could be more wierd than me starting to blog, posting few wierdo stuff, and staying away from blogging for a yr. (hmph, never really wanted to confess on this but this was the most obvious)

2) Almost all those whom i hav stamped by mistake or those who have seen me do so know about this wierd thing about me. I would have shouted well before and much louder than my target :) ... And to those poor souls al that i can say is "Sorry" for stamping, and sorry for shouting hard and making you have pity on me.

3) Blabbering - though i manage to do this 24 X 7, the peak time is when am about to sleep or about to wake up. Neither I or the other person can either follow or remember the conversation after a couple of mins by then i would have given a call back making myself sound more clear :P... (i prefer not to mention any particular examples for my own benefit :P)

4) The night creature - what friends back at coll started calling me as... those were the days i strted this sleep not earlier than 1 a.m. mission and continuing still.

5) A Lazy Dozer - ask my mom and she'll write essays on this. But one thing even she'll accept is its just that am lazy to start with, once i am into a work i just keep going along... still am lazy otherways also - never known to keep my room clean, keep things organised, blah blah blah... but never been lazy to ask mom to do them for me :D

6) I can confuse people just by talking and making no sense at all... (confused how?? just read wierdo #5... did i mke sense???)

7) Never been a voracious reader, but always wanted to read a lot.. dunno what goes wrong and i dont end up reading as much as i want to... :(

8) Day dreamer... i imagine things to be too realistic and at times end up feeling bad when the real world is on the contrary...

Now i have kept my word. Harini and Deepak should be happy that i have completed their tag.

And now for the worst part - tagging others. Will just tag Sriram, Supriya, Sridevi (people i shall influence hard to join me in coming back to blogging)

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

A "Revival" of thoughts

Its been a year that i have shyed away from writing- a self imposed exile as its been termed (by Harini, the fairy), and its been high time i started scribbling again. Quite unexpected it would be that i wasted one and half months of free time @ home. But i felt it would be more apt to write off just before i start on a new mission. And this time i shall not just post regualary but make it short ones, and make them different.

Let all the good things begin together...